Panicked, panicking, will be panicking.. ..

Writing? The only power that moves me, that makes me panic.

Yes. I am panicking as I am pushing my thoughts out from my head and into this post. I was panicking the first time I sat down took my pen and started putting whatever was going on in that tinny brain of mine into the blank paper in front of me. My feelings. My thoughts. It is like putting me into words. How could I do that? How could I not do that? What is the way to do so? To perfectly put me into a paper? Would the words I know be enough? Am I that describable? Am I that easy to simply be expressed in my vocabulary? Am I that complicated not to be described with few words? Ugh! I really did not know back then nor now, nor would I expect to know any time in the future.. ..

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.. .. My wish

Why do I have to pay for her mistakes? Why do I have to fix what she has broken? Why do I have to be the glue to your heart? Why do I have to be the girl you want but is scared of to have? Why do I have to be the person you lean on while your heart is telling you to let me go? Why do I have to be your fixer? Why do I have to be the girl you love but not the girl you want to be with?  Continue reading .. .. My wish

Nothing, none.

via Daily Prompt: None

I am staring at you, as you are

I am concentrating on the shape of your face, as you did

I am feeling your warm touch, as you are feeling mine

I am lost in your smile, as you are in my breath

I am breathing faster, as you run your fingers through my hair

I am motionless, as you pull me towards you

I am boiling up, as you are

I am alive in your presence, as you are not there

I am running through the memories, as you have shut the door on us

I am sitting here doing nothing

I am waiting for you, my none existence, my forgotten

I am nothing without you, I am none

I am a nobody short of us, I have none

I am lacking you, I am none

I am deprived of you, I am a piece, I am none

I am, solely, me, a no one, I am none